The following entries are meditations on the experience of what one may call, "a canceled life". They explore a transformation of a being into a perceived non-being, the terror of a call-out, the effects of being publicly shamed, the day-to-day of disgrace, my shame of doing things I've done, my anger at being accused of doing things I did not do, and the existential confusion of it all.

This writing is not only something I do to cope with the constant haunting of a single saga in my life (which is described in "The Details" section), but it's something I hope others in similar situations can find helpful. There is no intended order, I just add them as I write them.

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